dalyndarling

Elizabeth. 22. BSc Marketing & Brand Management. Fashion & Lifestyle.

This blog will mostly cover fashion, my adventures in and out of Oslo, Norway, and whatever else that pops into mind.

Oslo raised, Melbourne based.

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FEAR OF GOODBYES

6/26/2016 6:53 PM TRAVELSTHOUGHTSPERSONAL

What do you call a fear of leaving things behind? Is there even a term for it?

I've tried to look it up, but all I get is articles about the actual fear of traveling and stepping out of your comfort zone. That's not my problem. My problem lies in after I've left my comfort zone, and have to walk back into it.

At this point, it wouldn't even be my comfort zone anymore.

As I'm counting down the remaining days that I have left here, I'm starting to get this feeling of emptiness. Is it just the fear of goodbyes?

When I try to explain my situation to people, they don't seem to get where I'm coming from.

For the international students, like myself, they are excited to go back to the embrace of their loved ones after a fun-filled semester.

"I've had the best of experience here, but I can't wait to go home!"

For the locals, a handful of people will give you a little pity pat on the shoulder combined with some comfort words, and watch you go. The other handful of people, the ones you are closer to, will genuinely feel sad to send you off.

But will any of those people ever really understand your frustration?

I'm leaving a place I'm calling my second home, and I'm also leaving the people I've grown fond and attached to for various reasons. For them, it's one more person gone from their lives, but then they will have to go back to their routines and life goes on. Same reality. One less person.

For me, I'm leaving this place and going back to a completely different reality. Another country. My home. Another everyday life. My old routines.

There's another month before I need to pack my bags and go back to Norway, but as time flies, that's basically nothing.

Goodbyes really suck. Especially if you're the one leaving.